I totally made a fool of myself the other day at work. Totally. Not like this is new for me — I have a remarkable history of doing this — from inadvertently showing my entire 5th grade class my underwear to laughing uncontrollably at a law school professor in the middle of class.
So while this is nothing new for me, it still really bothers me. Every time I get into one of these situations, I have to go through the same recovery process.
The last couple days I’ve really been beating myself up about this. What was I thinking? How could I? How embarrassing! There is no hope for me… I am humiliated. And I have been suffering under a lot of condemnation.
I have regularly been praying Psalm 69:5-6:
O God, you know how foolish I am; my sins cannot be hidden from you. Don’t let those who trust in you be ashamed because of me, O Sovereign Lord Almighty. Don’t let me cause them to be humiliated, O God of Israel.
And I have felt God reminding me:
There is no condemnation in me. Romans 8:1
What matters to me is that you realize what you did wrong, and you’re sorry. Did you really think you wouldn’t make any more mistakes the rest of your life? I will not despise a broken and contrite heart. Psalm 51:17
If you think this is bad, think of how bad you used to be! You’re a work in progress, and I will be faithful to complete the good work I began in you. Philippians 1:6
I have reconciled you to myself through the death of Christ in his physical body. As a result, I have brought you into my own presence, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before me without a single fault. But you must continue to believe this truth and stand firmly in it. Colossians 1:22-23
I regret what I did, but I am striving to forget the past and look forward to what lies ahead, focusing on His forgiveness and mercy of me and that I stand before Him without a single fault. In fact, this morning I was imagining what my royal robes of righteousness will look like!